Chapter 2 – Flowers and Dew and Something New

Within a half hour, Tildy was on her way north, carrying the witch’s blessing and a lunch of apples, cheese, and toasted bread in a small bag slung over one shoulder. A waterskin also hung there, and in her opposite hand she clutched a cedar walking stick, its carved top displaying a dragon emerging from the wood. As she held the staff, the warmth of her hand released the wood’s fragrant scent. Old Whitts, the woodcarver, told her the dragon was the image of the beast that had imbued his staves with strength, and he had only carved enough to reveal the beast hidden within the wood. Tildy had believed the second part but not the first. Despite that, she often found herself imagining dragons as she walked with the stick.

She had been younger and smaller the last time she’d made this trip, a journey of a few hours, including the instructive stops the witch liked to make. Today, she walked purposefully through the trees of Eddlweld, not meandering like she often did as she studied every wonderful thing around her. She held to the path, which was easy to do. A path always led from the witch’s cottage in the direction a person was headed, although no path led to it, unless the person had visited before.

Soon she would emerge into unfiltered daylight and turn east. Although there was no road to her destination from there, she could have found her way in the dark. She’d always had a keen sense of direction, and the specialness of this place had made an indelible mark in her memory that served better than any map or road.

Tildy stopped, her remarkable ears picking up an animal carefully padding through the underbrush. Its approach suggested that it was unaware of her presence which, as usual, gave her a sense of pride. It didn’t stalk like a predator, or scamper like one of the noisy rodents who lived in Eddlweld, so she guessed it was either a stag or its lithe cousin, the ambiset. As it passed from behind the protective screen of thick neverwinter trees, however, she saw it was neither! Tildy sucked in her breath, not wanting the sapphox to see her. Unfortunately, the inhalation was enough noise to cause the creature to pause, its translucent fur bristling like the needles of a blue spruce tree. She’d never seen one before, and her eyes drank in every detail, from its white nose and whiskers to a tail that became deep indigo at the tip.

The reclusive animal had a rich folklore in the lands around Wayfahren, and she’d heard the many and varied stories. She’d found in her short life that, the less frequently something had been seen, the more tales there were to tell. Most agreed the sapphox was a fair omen that meant a person was about to learn something or discover a lost treasure. There were also tales of those trying to fix fate, such as the man who attempted to dye an ordinary red fox but only succeeded in permanently staining his hands. She didn’t put much faith in superstitions, though it was true enough a rare sight. Soon, the creature calmed, and it moved on, more cautiously than before. She waited until its steps had faded, grateful for the chance encounter. While she could only hope to see the beautiful creature again, she hoped others would be able to appreciate this wonder of the wilds.

Tildy resumed her walk, mind wandering. The forest was well-protected, both by the witch’s whispered reputation and the dense shadows of trees, so she had nothing to fear. As they often had during the winter, she found her thoughts turning to the witch’s finding and adopting of her. Such a normal thing it seemed to Tildy now, it remained a favorite fireside topic in the taverns of nearby Wayfahren even twelve years later. Since no one had seen the witch in the companionship of any men, and since she obviously had queer powers, it was rumored that Tildy was a miracle birth. That no one had ever seen her as a baby made no nevermind to the simple folk. Nor did it seem to matter to the locals that Tildy had not displayed any of the special abilities that naturally followed such a wondrous birth.

Dark rumor there also was, of child-thieving in the night, or something fouler. Stories told by hearthlight often turned or twisted facts into nightmare tales, and witchlore was fertile ground for unkind hearts. More often than not, these stories were shouted down by the locals who’d never seen a hint of such evil.

For her part, the witch never corrected a single story or accusation, nor did she answer any question directly. “Tildeneth is my daughter. Simple as that.” Most area folk accepted the witch’s words, unsatisfactory an answer they might seem. In this region, the word of upstanding people was rarely questioned, especially when that person had a long history in the area. And the witch had a longer history than most.

Tildy knew all this and followed the witch’s lead, allowing people their folly. She called her ‘mother’ in public (the only time the witch didn’t seem to grumble about it) and always feigned ignorance about her birth. In Tildy’s mind, this was hardly a lie since she really knew nothing of her life as a baby. Deep down, it made her feel special: the girl with the secret past and some hidden power. Someone not destined for a quiet life as a gardener or herbmaster.

Coming out of her thoughts, Tildy realized she had arrived at Caraban Losh: a margin of prairie that rose into forest, where a massive beech tree held court like some king of giants. Its trunk-sized branches dwarfed the largest trees at Dappledown and the witch had once told Tildy that a dragon could shelter within its deep shade. All around, bushes and brush mixed with tall yellow grasses and flowers with long, slender stems. Nearby, the fragrant tildenethia were as strong as ever, oppressive in their potency.

She’d been longing for the familiarity of the place, or at least, the solace that came from recalling the story in the place where it happened. Tildy was quite certain her parents had died here, though she hadn’t any memory or proof. Here at least, she could walk the place where they’d shared their last moments together as a family.

She knew not many orphans would imagine that their lost parents were dead. She guessed other children would be waiting for them to return from some magical place, eager to reunite their broken families. Such thoughts had never occurred to Tildy. She was certain her parents were dead, and the belief that they had died protecting her was about as much comfort as she could derive from the tragedy.

The witch hadn’t been able to make any determinations, either, despite having arrived shortly after the assault. The attackers had despoiled the bodies and set everything aflame, destroying anything that might have provided answers. When she walked amidst the drifting smoke and spirits of the dead, she’d heard a baby alone in the brush, perhaps dropped, but more likely, hidden. Fearful for the child, she had fled without taking more time to investigate. Soon after, the witch learned that the king had fallen and there was likely no authority who would help reunite the child with other relations. Tildy was just another baby orphaned by the war.

She had called this location Caraban Losh as a small girl because a speech impediment prevented her from saying ‘caravan lost’. She had scrawled Caraban Losh on a map when she was learning her letters and the name had stuck. The witch later discovered the impairment resulted from Tildy’s jawbone and tongue unconsciously shifting in unnatural directions when she was tired. This was the first clue to Tildy’s special abilities, though the inexperienced witch originally dismissed them as changes in a growing child. With some concentrated practice, Tildy now had control: her words crisp and her mouth a regular shape.

Surveying her surroundings, she saw little had changed in the last few years, aside from trees being taller, grass growing wilder, and tildenethia smelling stronger. In the cool shade beneath the tree, the tildenethia flourished in the brown mulch of countless years of fallen leaves. Tildy also noticed that it was still as quiet as she remembered. When she had visited with the witch, they never spoke, nor did they hear any bird or beast. Even the wind had no voice. This wasn’t a place for conversation, human or otherwise. Tildy imagined this was like visiting a graveyard.

She walked to the tildenethia, easily identifying those stalks that were ready for harvesting. As she crouched and started slicing with her knife, she thought about how she’d been found right at this spot. It offered the best hiding spot around here, and clearly she had been hidden by loving parents. Who else would have done that for a child that wasn’t theirs? That she was hidden suggested that her parents knew there was no escape. Had they been targeted? Had it been bandits?

With a soft squish and squelch, the plant’s silvery ichor began running over her knife and fingers. Tildy paused her thoughts, standing to wipe her hand on her dress. She could go on and on like this, and had before, stuck in the imaginings and what-ifs that unanswered questions always brought forward. Realizing that she’d been holding her breath in concentration, she inhaled deeply, letting the familiar fragrance of the tildenethia flow through her.

Then, as though she were seeing a memory played out in the world around her, a vision of an armed man staggered into the flowers, a bundle in his arms that prevented her from seeing the full heraldry of his tunic. He loosely held a bloodied sword and an arrow jutted from his shoulder blade. Scorch marks dotted his clothing here and there. As he collapsed, something fell from the bundle, glinting in the light before disappearing into the foliage below. He lay on the ground at Tildy’s feet, unmoving, two more arrows in his back. The bundle squirmed for a moment beneath him, but remained silent. A shadow fell upon them and Tildy gasped as a black blade was thrust into the knight’s back. She looked up, but his killer had disappeared into smoke, like the rest of the vision.

Tildy closed her eyes and concentrated, but she couldn’t get the image to return. Opening her eyes, she stared at the spot, stunned. What was that? A memory? At first it felt like a daydream, created by pieces of the witch’s stories of finding Tildy, but it was so real! Vivid, yet obscured, like watching people moving through fog. There were snatches of color that dimmed as the mist increased, though they felt implanted in her memory as though she’d actually witnessed them.

What if she had? What if this was what had really happened to her? A thousand other questions entered her mind. Why was she protected by a knight, if true knight he was? Where were her parents? Who had attacked them and why? How had she survived?

Hadn’t the witch told her she’d been found in the tildenethia? Yes, but there had been no mention of being hidden under a dead knight. Tildy supposed that could have been to save her from nightmares, but even so. What she’d just seen seemed more real than the witch’s story. Standing here in the bushes, there was one way to find out. She got down on hands and knees to search amongst the roots. It was long odds, as her friend Fietha would say, but what else did she have to do today? Certainly, a lost clue to her past was worth some dirty fingernails and skinned knees.

The remnants of old leaves at her feet were cool, but the matted layers were thick and would take some time to explore thoroughly. Tildy rooted about, digging and clearing space between the stems of the tildenethia, the smell of which began to overwhelm her. She thought she might be overcome if she didn’t raise up her head soon. But she was too caught up in her hopes to realize how much the fragrance affected her.

The world swam before her. Tildy was about to stand up, when again in her mind’s eye, she saw the glinting metal piece falling through the air. Here, below the tops of the tall tildenethia, she watched it fall to the ground near her right hand. In a haze, she scratched at the ground, one part of her mind chastising herself for the ridiculous notion, another part certain of what she would find.

Her eyes lost focus. Her head drifted. She forgot where she was. Her hand scraped something metal. Her fingers grasped it. She stood.

Tildy stumbled from the flower patch and into a warm daylight that was filled with popping black stars.

A figure rushed up. “Tildeneth!”

Tildy looked up quickly – too quickly – and she swooned. She fell into the man’s arms and he laid her gently on the ground. As she lay on her back, taking in cool breaths of relief, she kept her eyes closed, not quite ready to see the dizzying motion of the world around her.

“Just take easy breaths, love. There you are,” the man said in soothing tones that were distorted by her haze. She knew that voice, said a distant echo in her mind, but she couldn’t focus enough to remember.

Finally, she had recovered enough for her mind to start working again. Tildy opened her eyes and blinked in the sunlight. Recognizing the crooked nose and scarred forehead, she said, “Fietha?” and sat up.

The man smiled. “Aye. Arrived in the nick of time, I have, eh?”

Tildy returned as much of the smile as she was capable. “What are you doing here?” Her thoughts more coherent now, it seemed an odd coincidence that her friend should happen upon this spot on the same day. She surreptitiously slipped the mysterious pin into her pocket.

“Me?” Fietha repeated, scratching his scruffy face. Tildy knew his sharp mind was developing a very convincing story. “There’s more for a trader up here than flowers and dew, lass.”

The witch had said something similar to Tildy before she left. “You did see her. I knew it.”

The man held his hands up in defense, but he was smiling. “I don’t know what you’re talking about. Seeing what a fine spring day it was, and suddenly realizing that some of my stock of tildenethia was depleted, I thought I would drive my wagon up here to replenish. After all,” he added, “it is Heal’s Eve.”

“Uh huh,” she took his proffered hand to stand. “You don’t trade tildenethia. And the old road is overgrown. And,” she said, placing extra emphasis on the word to indicate that she saw through his subterfuge, “tildenethia doesn’t need to be harvested on Heal’s Eve.”

“You might be right,” he said, giving her an unabashed smile. “But well do I know this place, regardless. How are you feeling?”

“Better,” she said, inhaling a deep breath. The world was again in focus. “Better in the fresh air.”

“That is well. But Tildeneth, you know to be careful amongst your namesake. Some find tildenethia wonderfully intoxicating, but most folk become overwhelmed.”

“I know, I know.” Tildy hated being reminded of her lapses in judgment.

“Yes, I know you do. What was it that your mother always said about the tildenethia?”

“Adoptive mother,” she corrected. Tildy saw a smile being restrained at the corners of his mouth and she sighed. “Tildenethia is a beautiful and pungent flower, much like the baby she found sleeping in the bushes twelve years ago,” she recited in a monotone. She rolled her eyes and began to walk away. “You know I go by ‘Tildy’.”

Fietha clearly saw her eyeroll, but he was enjoying himself. He caught up to her and said, “Ah, but I see you are at an age where a parent’s jokes become wearisome!” He laughed, the bright and infectious kind that always caused others to laugh along. As Tildy joined in, he added, “Fine, and I will call you Tildy as you so often request. But I seem to remember you had other names by which you wanted to be known. Several, in fact.”

Normally, Tildy would have dismissed his jest, but it reminded her of something she’d been meaning to tell her friend. “Fietha, listen, I think I’ve chosen my last name,” she blurted as she stopped. She’d put much thought into this, but had been unable to discuss it with anyone yet. For all her wisdom, the witch didn’t understand Tildy’s need.

“Another one?”

“Well, yes.” Tildy frowned, suspecting that she was about to lose control of the conversation with her sharp-tongued friend.

“You no longer desire Lightfoot?”


“Silverwing?” Fietha was the only other person who knew about her wings.

“No.” This wasn’t going as she’d hoped.

“What about Applebosom?”

“It was Applebottom!”

“Is that any better?” he laughed.

“Well, no,” Tildy said with a blush.

“And so?”

“I’m not sure I want to tell you now.”

Fietha laughed some more, but there was no malice in it. “Come, sweet lady! Tell me your unspoken name so I can address you properly.”

Tildy took a breath, unhappy that the conversation had gone in this direction. But stronger was her desire to share her decision with someone. “Silverleaf,” she said, giving him a tentative glance. “Tildy Silverleaf.”

“I like it.”

“Really?” Tildy breathed a sigh of relief. It felt good to finally share, and his opinion mattered nearly as much as the witch’s—one of the reasons she told him first.


“That means a lot, Fietha.”

He studied her face for a moment, as though searching for something new about her. “Tell me, m’lady Silverleaf. Why so focused on your surname? I’ve never known a person who’s put as much thought into their name as you.”

Tildy hesitated, though she already knew the answer. This was something she’d contemplated her entire life, though years had passed before she’d been old enough to put thought into explanation. Finally she said, “Unlike most people, I don’t know my own name. I have the one the witch gave me – Tildeneth – but it’s never felt quite right.”

“That would explain your insistence to be called Tildy.”

“Yes and no,” she said, shaking her head. “It’s more than that. I had a name before the witch found me, but it’s lost. Just like everything else I had. Parents, home, family,” she said quietly. “Probably forever.” Although she’d considered this many times, there was a finality in saying it aloud, as though she’d accepted it at long last. Given up. She didn’t feel like crying, though a tear did slide down her cheek and she bowed her head to hide it.

Fietha leaned down and lifted her chin. “Forever is a long time.”

“I know.” How could she help him understand? She wiped her face and said, “We assign so much of our identities to a name. It becomes as much a part of you as your hair or skin or the toes on your feet.” Her voice strengthened as her conviction returned. “I guess choosing the name helps me move on. Gives me a little control over the situation. Everything about me was lost when the caravan was attacked. My life as it was, taken, and my name with it. Now, I’ve taken it back.”

Fietha stared at her, studying her face again. “You’re very wise for one your age. I mean it.”

“Cheers, Fietha,” Tildy said, some of the sadness returning to mix with the gratitude. It wasn’t easy discussing her past or the fears or the sense of loss that no one else really understood. Talking with Fietha helped, as it always did, even if he couldn’t relate.

“Tildy,” he continued, “you might be the only one to survive the attack, but you know you’re not alone, eh?”

“I know,” said Tildy, walking again. “I do know.”

“Family and friends and homes, they all come and go in our lives. Sometimes we have them for years. Sometimes it feels like the space between the blinks of an eye.” He sighed. “I don’t tell you these things to dismiss your feelings. Quite the opposite really. I think that the importance of these things, the sense of loss you feel, mean that you will have these things again. Not the same ones you’ve lost, but new ones. Truly, the pursuit of a name is but the first on that journey.”

Tildy smiled at him, but did not respond. They walked in silence for long minutes, during which time Tildy studied the world around her: the trees with their new leaves and buds, the thick rich grasses that nearly glowed with green life, the dollops of white cloud that hung in the sky, slowly transforming as they rolled east. Perhaps Fietha was right. These lands, the garden of Dappledown, even nearby Wayfahren town, these places were more of a home than the one she’d lost. The sadness began to fade and the sun seemed to shine upon her face again.

Perhaps seeing this change, Fietha said, “Well, we’re awfully quiet today. How about a song?”

“Oh yes,” Tildy said, relieved for an opportunity for a happier subject. Fietha knew all sorts of songs and could brighten any day.

“As you might remember, I know several,” Fietha began.

“No drinking songs!” Tildy laughed.

“Fine, fine. According to your mother, you’re too young to properly enjoy those anyways. Ah, yes. I have one.” And so he began to sing as they walked:

Beneath the bridge

Amidst the rocks

They’re taking kids

They’re taking flocks

They chew the bones

They eat the meat

Their breath is never thought as sweet.


The troll!

The troll!

Beware the troll!

Down from mount’n,

Up from hole.


As hard as stone

As stern as rock

Tough to kill

And bad to mock

Dull in head

But quick of hand

Beware, my fragile little lad!


The troll!

The troll!

Beware the troll!

Down from mount’n,

Up from hole.


With horn-ed feet

And knobbled thumb

With gimlet eye

And bleeding gum!

To run is smart

To fight, mistake

With streams of fallen in their wake.


The troll!

The troll!

Beware the troll!

Down from mount’n,

Up from hole.


With tree of oak

Or other club

And fingernail

Worn down to nub

He’ll strike you dead,

He’ll strike you blind

Your head will care no nevermind!


The troll!

The troll!

Beware the troll!

Down from mount’n,

Up from hole.


Perhaps you’ll find

Some crack or craw

Some weakest point

Some armored flaw

And then you’ll break

His horn-ed hide.

And dance in vict-ry as he died.

The troll!

The troll!

No more the troll!

N’more from mount’n,

N’more from hole.

Tildy clapped with delight as Fietha held the last note until his breath ran out. The song was an old favorite that he had taught her years ago. “I can’t remember the last time you sang that,” she said.

“Aye, it’s been years,” he replied. He gave her a sideways glance. “You should put those away you know.”

It was then that Tildy realized she was floating along beside him, her wings fluttering. “Oh!” she exclaimed, landing with a bump. “I didn’t realize.” Her wings disappeared beneath the hidden flap in her dress. “Well, you’ve known about these for years. Good thing it’s just us, huh?” she said, but the forming smile died when she saw Fietha’s disappointed look.

“Yes,” Fietha said, beginning a soft rebuke. “Tildy, I know you know this, but I must say it anyways. These lands are filled with sneak-thieves and creatures of dark purpose—”

“And some with crack or craw or armored flaw?” she joked. But seeing his serious face, she recited in a monotone, “Many of whom would pursue me because they’ve never seen a human like me.” She finished with a heavy sigh: “I know.”

“And I’m sure you hear it all the time from your mother. But listen,” he said, stopping in front of her, “you’re on the verge of womanhood, and everything is about to change for you. There will be so many things that you’ll need to consider.”

Tildy interrupted again. “I really don’t want to hear about womanly changes from you.” She crossed her arms over her chest.

“Yes well, there’s no need to be rude. I have an inkling of how this transition will be for you and I don’t want you having to consciously think about hiding yourself at the same time. Believe me, you’ll be grateful for the feeling that some things are within your control when so many things are not.” His eyes searched her face, but Tildy was done listening.

Fietha finally gave up. “Fine. Sulk away.” He walked away from her. “My wagon is just over here. I’ll bring you home.”

Tildy was already lost in her thoughts. It was bad enough hearing the witch stumbling through the topic of adolescence. She definitely didn’t want to hear it from a man who obviously had no real idea, whatever he said. Of course she knew she had to hide her wings. They’d been saying the same thing for years—how could they think she didn’t understand? If anything, they were the ones who weren’t comprehending. It’s not like she was deliberately flying about, flashing her wings. Really, truly, sometimes they just popped out when she was particularly happy. Or mad, now that she thought about it. Whether this happened because she was feeling strong emotions, she didn’t particularly care. This was an accident. No one had seen her. And no one ever would.

She climbed into the wagon and sat beside Fietha. He snapped the horse’s reins and they rode off in silence. As often happened when she was mad, a small voice of reason tried to interject into her thoughts, but she quieted it as quickly as slamming a door. She wanted something to kick, but Fietha was the only thing around.

It was then she remembered the dirt-encrusted metal pin resting in her pocket. It might be nothing, and yet it might be a profound secret. Deciding she was not ready to share – and perhaps with a small amount of spite toward Fietha – she kept the object hidden for now. There would be time enough to see it later when she was alone. In his typical fashion, because he disliked silence, Fietha started talking again, but saying little of import. Tildy suspected he just liked to hear himself talk.

As they rode, her mood lightened and her head cleared the last remnants of her irritation and the tildenethia’s spell. Regardless of what had happened in the brush, she was returning home, where there was food and protection and love. Most importantly, she bore a secret in her pocket that might be a clue to her past.

She looked about as they rode along the edge of the forest. It was a fine Spring day, and a finer morning had not yet been seen this season.

Chapter 3 – Healing Day

© Michael Wallevand, November 2016

  • Updated March 11, 2017
  • Updated November 3, 2018

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